blast from the past

I just happen to watch this not so-old film yesterday that stars Jennifer Garner, 13 going on 30 and to my surprise it is actually a good one. Besides the comedy and the feel good to nothing kinda vibe it has, it truly has this big impact on me…yeah, it hit me like a fast running bullet and before I knew it the film just made me cry.

Well I find it really funny and amusing all at the same time because I never thought in my wildest dreams that this film could actually do this to me. Hehehe… but seriously it’s pretty good.

I just happen to go back to the person I was before after watching this movie. You know, that kind of blast from the past thing

just made me cry

…I just thought of the things that I used to do and miss them actually. I know that as I grow old, as I meet new friends, got to experience things and see all of these at the different perspective I get to change a bit of myself. I don’t know and I never plan it anyway…but I guess it’s just the way it should be or maybe I’ve change without actually knowing it. I just missed the old me.

I’ve learned that as you move on and go to a different level some of the good things in life are being left behind and then there comes the time that you wish everything will just go back to normal, but then you can’t just do it easily because things aren’t the way they were before.

We are open to the idea that everything changes and nothing’s permanent, right? These changes brings so much to us that sometimes we can’t really mange them to go at the right side always. Some turns out to be distorted and worst failed. But indeed we need this to create ourselves, to have a unique identity and know ourselves more, to know what we can do and what we cannot.

I guess this blast from the past that I have experience after watching this film only shows that maybe I’m not happy to where I am right now or maybe I’m still looking out for more, something that used to be there.